I've been updating rather infrequently these days - noticed?
Had Psych and Accounting exams this week. I underprepared for what I thought would be an easy blow-off exam in an easy blow-off class, and got myelf a B+. I'm one of those people who doesn't like the B+. So that was not good. The accounting I put in some good solid study time for, mostly the day of and some the day before the exam. Absolutely raped it. That was earlier tonight, actually. It was a slow, thorough rape, and that exam was lying on the floor in a pool of blood by the time I was done with it.
I'm having guilt about Jujutsu. I stopped going last week, finally giving in to the realization that I was having to force myself to go, and then watching the clock the whole time I was there. In short, I wasn't enjoying it. So I stopped, and I think I've missed a total of 3 regular workouts now without saying anything to Sensai. He apparently noticed my absence today, and said something to my friends about it. When I think about that, I want to rush back there on Saturday and pretend like nothing happened....but then I'll be stuck in the same place again. I'm glad that I tried something new and that I did reasonably well with it (and I'm very, very proud of my belt), but I know that I do not have, at this point in time, the right attitude or personality that it would take to give Jujutsu the devotion it requires. And I can't half-ass it. That's just a good way to get myself or somebody else hurt, and to hold my partner back. So all that's left is to tell Sensai. A couple Saturdays ago, when I didn't go to the workout, I went to the gym and swam laps, then went to the library and did some reading for class. That doesn't sound like much, but a few hours of alone time can definitely be a blessing.
I finished the RA interview process. I heard through the grapevine (my RA) that I did really well on the group interview. I don't know about the individual interview though - that was yesterday. I either came off as competent, responsible, virtuous, intelligent, and sensible, or just pretentious and talkative. Steph is back now, so no more typing, because the conversation is too stimulating.
Goodnight and stuff, eventually.
Had Psych and Accounting exams this week. I underprepared for what I thought would be an easy blow-off exam in an easy blow-off class, and got myelf a B+. I'm one of those people who doesn't like the B+. So that was not good. The accounting I put in some good solid study time for, mostly the day of and some the day before the exam. Absolutely raped it. That was earlier tonight, actually. It was a slow, thorough rape, and that exam was lying on the floor in a pool of blood by the time I was done with it.
I'm having guilt about Jujutsu. I stopped going last week, finally giving in to the realization that I was having to force myself to go, and then watching the clock the whole time I was there. In short, I wasn't enjoying it. So I stopped, and I think I've missed a total of 3 regular workouts now without saying anything to Sensai. He apparently noticed my absence today, and said something to my friends about it. When I think about that, I want to rush back there on Saturday and pretend like nothing happened....but then I'll be stuck in the same place again. I'm glad that I tried something new and that I did reasonably well with it (and I'm very, very proud of my belt), but I know that I do not have, at this point in time, the right attitude or personality that it would take to give Jujutsu the devotion it requires. And I can't half-ass it. That's just a good way to get myself or somebody else hurt, and to hold my partner back. So all that's left is to tell Sensai. A couple Saturdays ago, when I didn't go to the workout, I went to the gym and swam laps, then went to the library and did some reading for class. That doesn't sound like much, but a few hours of alone time can definitely be a blessing.
I finished the RA interview process. I heard through the grapevine (my RA) that I did really well on the group interview. I don't know about the individual interview though - that was yesterday. I either came off as competent, responsible, virtuous, intelligent, and sensible, or just pretentious and talkative. Steph is back now, so no more typing, because the conversation is too stimulating.
Goodnight and stuff, eventually.
posted by Laura at 12:51:00 AM
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