What exactly am I good at again?
This is just me whining, but I don't think I have a passion any more. There was always something in high school that I could do better than anyone else, or at least better than most. Here I have hobbies and preoccupations, and classes. I can almost feel myself becoming empty. No, that's a bit dramatic - it's just frustrating having been the best musician in my high school, and coming here and being completely outshone. It's the classic small-high-school big-university problem, and if that's the worst of my problems, I'm a spoiled little girl.
As of today, I'm done with physics lab. I got back my exam from Monday. I sure beat my last grades - I got a 34! That's even lower than my 52! But the professor said he would drop the lowest exam, and that an A on the final means an A in the course, period. So why do I keep doing the homework?.... At any rate, I joked today about how I would be camping out in the library studying for the next couple weeks. Yeah......no.
So, I'm finally somewhat excited about the choir banquet tomorrow. I get to wear my sexy green dress again! I know I kind of looked down on the whole choir clique all year, but I've only recently come to realize that most of them really are very friendly, very fun people. Now they all think I'm quiet. I wonder what they'll think if I really let loose and act like myself tomorrow?
It's not that I'm shy - anyone who's gotten to know me definitely knows that. I just kind of take my time getting comfortable around new people and getting to know them before I subject them to The Laura.
Oh yes, there was a fire alarm today. It was around 7pm this time, though. I did absolutely no work tonight. Laundry's in the dryer though! Gonna go redo my toenails while I wait......oh god, I'm becoming one of them, aren't I? The girly girls? Someone come smack some sense into me if I start exhibiting valley-girl characteristics.
Have a good one; I know I did.
This is just me whining, but I don't think I have a passion any more. There was always something in high school that I could do better than anyone else, or at least better than most. Here I have hobbies and preoccupations, and classes. I can almost feel myself becoming empty. No, that's a bit dramatic - it's just frustrating having been the best musician in my high school, and coming here and being completely outshone. It's the classic small-high-school big-university problem, and if that's the worst of my problems, I'm a spoiled little girl.
As of today, I'm done with physics lab. I got back my exam from Monday. I sure beat my last grades - I got a 34! That's even lower than my 52! But the professor said he would drop the lowest exam, and that an A on the final means an A in the course, period. So why do I keep doing the homework?.... At any rate, I joked today about how I would be camping out in the library studying for the next couple weeks. Yeah......no.
So, I'm finally somewhat excited about the choir banquet tomorrow. I get to wear my sexy green dress again! I know I kind of looked down on the whole choir clique all year, but I've only recently come to realize that most of them really are very friendly, very fun people. Now they all think I'm quiet. I wonder what they'll think if I really let loose and act like myself tomorrow?
It's not that I'm shy - anyone who's gotten to know me definitely knows that. I just kind of take my time getting comfortable around new people and getting to know them before I subject them to The Laura.
Oh yes, there was a fire alarm today. It was around 7pm this time, though. I did absolutely no work tonight. Laundry's in the dryer though! Gonna go redo my toenails while I wait......oh god, I'm becoming one of them, aren't I? The girly girls? Someone come smack some sense into me if I start exhibiting valley-girl characteristics.
Have a good one; I know I did.
posted by Laura at 12:28:00 AM
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