Oh man, isn't it annoying when people post sappy AIM conversations?
No comment on the spelling. I think it's cute :)

The Great Shono: its not possible, your so freaking awsome its just not possible
lelila1015: compliment overload!! AHHHHHH!!!!!!
lelila1015: :-D
The Great Shono: hahaha
The Great Shono: i thought you would be used to it by now
lelila1015: you'd think
lelila1015: but that's one thing that definitely never gets old
The Great Shono: good, i'm glad, then i'll never have to stop

The Great Shono: i wish i was there just to put my arms around you, seeing you today was definatly the best thing that happened all day
The Great Shono: you have no idea how you just brightened everything up in that spit second you walked outa the dinning hall


*melts*

Laura needs to stop thinking so much and start working more. It would also help for her to not refer to herself in the third person tense. And finally, she should stop talking to Shawn and go to bed.

Having easy classes is such a GOOD thing.

Yeah, everything should work now.

Haha, I have a lot of clothes to put away before I go to bed....silly laundry....

Are the archives not working again? Yeah, I'll re-publish them.

Ok, ideas for the news tomorrow night! I'm going to be anchoring, and I'll definitely have plenty of space to add my own commentary/feature/SOMETHING. I have no footage of anything, so if I can come up with a rant that'd be great. Ideas....maybe a good idea would be to do homework/clean my room first....oo, check this out - I'm talking to Rachel right now about the news tomorrow night:

mulletude615: yeah. well we'll see. i know other people got footage over the weekend, so i'll have some material... but it will be a very weak show
lelila1015: hey, i'll add stuff
mulletude615: really??
lelila1015: like last year..
lelila1015: don't know what yet, but i'll come up with something
mulletude615: awesome! ok, cool.
mulletude615: you rock, laura!
lelila1015: haha don't tell me that yet.....i might not come up with anything, lol
lelila1015: maybe something like what andy used to do
mulletude615: yeah that would be good. as long as you're on it, it will be good!
lelila1015: lol, thank you! that's awesome
mulletude615: seriously, you were really good last year!
lelila1015: careful, you're gonna give me a big head

Overload....of.....compliments....

Ok, time to go do things!

Life IS good.

Mr Bassman CDN: you can wear a bathrobe.
Mr Bassman CDN: i'll make a fool out of myself to draw attention away. :-)
lelila1015: Y'know what I'll do
lelila1015: and this is foolish since I'm about to take a shower
lelila1015: I'll put clothes on!
Mr Bassman CDN: clothes! no way!
Mr Bassman CDN: what are you going to do with clothes on!
lelila1015: .....go out in public?
Mr Bassman CDN: awesome

Kitsune Zero 179: =3 i love your journal
Kitsune Zero 179: you've always had a way with words
Kitsune Zero 179: if keeping a blog is like cooking
Kitsune Zero 179: and using curse words is like using spices
Kitsune Zero 179: you have a delightful blend of spices and just the right balance in all your dishes.


Oh man, what a great compliment.....you're not gonna be able to fit my head through normal-sized doorways now.

Ok, I wrote the entry below in a fit of discontent with my online persona - too open, too mainstream, you get the idea - everyone has an online journal! Well, a lot of people do. Then you have to wonder how much free time these people have. But then I think about the people I know who have these, what kind of people they are, and what kinds of things we write. And no, we're not childish. I wouldn't say we're very mainstream. We do whine, but no one's forcing you to read this. If it is a sign of immaturity to keep an online journal while on the brink of adulthood, then oh well - that's why I'm on the brink! Thank you Jess H for putting that into perspective - and yes, I did read your last entry, and I sympathized, and after I post this I'll probably go comment on yours. If I don't, it's because I smell and I need to take a shower. I'm sure you understand. Jess K, thanks for your sarcasm. Always appreciated ;)

Tonight I get to sleep, and tomorrow morning I get to sleep more! Yay! Wednesdays are cool. Tomorrow night - if you're going to the James Mapes show, look for me with the camera crew. I love my job. (the UCTV deal, not the summer lifeguarding deals)

Shower, sleep - somewhere in between there I'll try to finish the thing I was working on for the station. And, room to myself tonight. Steph is awesome, but sometimes alone time is key.

Thank you everybody.....I have cool friends.

Is it childish to keep an online journal linked to your AIM profile where you write/whine about everyday life for all to see?

I am not getting anything done - how many people have you heard that from recently?

I honestly can't concentrate at all because my mind is somewhere else. This is dangerous - I've been doing so well, and something comes along that completely takes over my focus. And no, it's not just normal procrastination! I have my stats book and calculator and everything out in front of me, and I'm just not feeling it. Well, it is stats, so maybe it's not me so much. I hope that by the end of this week, I'll have caught up on everything, done great on my exams (have at least 2 this week) and I'll have decided how to handle a few things. So, I could buckle down and work hard starting right now, or I can call my mother. She makes things so clear sometimes, and puts everything in perspective. I guess when you took care of a wounded police officer, really sick kids, and everything else that comes out of the St. Mary's OR, you come out with a healthy sense of what really matters in life. Yeah, I'm kind of missing my parents right now.

What is best for me right now? Does someone know so I don't have to think about it?

Should I be looking into marketing? Do I honestly have the right personality/drive for that? What about economics? I can't even keep supply/demand curves straight. Maybe I should go into Business Management - the ultimate in bullshit.

I've got to learn to keep my personal and my school life separate, and make sure they're each getting the attention they need to get. It's already started - the slipping in time management that leads to tons of procrastination and piled-up work, and B's. Lots of B's. I can do better than that - why else am I here if I can't?

Sunday night rants.....maybe I'll be able to concentrate now.

Feeling kinda yucky still.

Sunday morning I woke up with a sore everything, products of several bad falls in Jujutsu the day before and sleeping funny. Also, a sore throat that hasn't gone away yet. So, I've been complaining for the past few days. It's helped.

Wednesdays are my sleep-in day, so I got up a little after 10 to a knock at my door. It was my brother, who had just gotten out of class. Two seconds after that, my roommate called from downstairs cuz she didn't have her keys. So, I'm up! Mike headed out maybe a half-hour ago, I cleaned up a little around here, and now I guess I should get dressed and head to South....I gave my speech Monday so now all I have to do in that class is listen. Also, I have to talk to my stats professor about converting the class....get the paperwork done/signed/handed in for that, do lots of stats homework, read several days of the Wall Street Journal, go to the library and pick up today's, go to econ class, go to work in Towers, and walk back here, and finish reading that book for history, and redo my toenails. And relax. And read for poli sci.

I'm not getting sick!

I'm not really that inclined to write right now.

-thoughts-

I need to take a shower.

I need to practice my speech.

I need to get sleep.

I need to not eat lots of bad things.

I need to not have a sore throat tomorrow.

I need to be able to move my neck.


That counts as an update, right? Nothing excessively interesting happened this week, just life.

lelila1015: you'll never get me!!!
taurus 46n2: you're the cookie dough boy?
lelila1015: you mean gingerbread man?
taurus 46n2: hahaha holy fuck i cant believe i screwed that up

:-)

my brother Mike: "There's something wrong with every girl. Gotta just expect that."

me: "Well, what's wrong with me then?"

Mike: "You? You're a loudmouth."

me: (pauses) "Yeah, I guess you're right."

My stats discussion got out early this morning, so I headed over to catch my brother as he was leaving his class, and we had breakfast at Towers. Apparently, his girlfriend broke up with him last Sunday. This is the same day that he and I were stuck in traffic behind a multi-car accident on I-84 for two and a half hours on our way up here. I know this news doesn't have the same impact on anyone who reads this as it did on me - I was stunned. They had been together for two and a half years, their families know and like each other, I was even thinking about what it would be like to have Amanda as a sister-in-law. I feel awful for him and angry at her. I guess little sisters can be protective, too.

What can you do for a good guy like him when something like this happens? I'm used to this happening to female friends, and there's usually a lot of name-calling and chocolate involved. Anyway, I'm not sure if he's told anyone else yet, which makes putting this in my blog questionable.
Here's my justification - I'll use my blog as a mechanism to help my brother meet girls (since he's not on campus fulltime anymore). He's 22, graduating in December, and has a good job making excellent money. His preoccupation is hockey, and he has an excellent sense of humor (similar to mine). He's a busy guy but will make time for his girl - I've seen that firsthand. He remembers birthdays, anniversaries, etc, and is both considerate and responsible.

Who's interested?

I just lost the long, rambling post I was working on. Here goes the second try.

I just finished watching a show on the History Channel about a group of mostly western toursits who were taken hostage by a group of rebels in Africa. The tourists were camping out to watch gorillas or some such - I think this was in Uganda. 18 of them were taken from their campsite, 9 made it back alive. One woman survived, after almost being dragged off by the hair by one of the rebel soldiers. The other women who had been taken hostage were separated from their husbands, one was raped, and all were hacked to pieces and left on the jungle floor to rot.

Tonight, Steph's boyfriend Dan apologized to me for the actions of men in general. We were talking about going to the gym at night, and I said that I wouldn't because I wouldn't want to walk home that late at night - that was when he apologized.

My Jujutsu sensei talks a lot about victims and survivors. The hostages were completely helpless before a group of well-armed and organized foot soldiers, but what would have happened if just one of those hostages was something more than the typical tourist? (or tour guide, who was the one who managed to save the woman and talk his way out for the rest of his group). Sensei says that those who cannot defend themselves or their loved ones are useless. I've had a couple drinks tonight, so maybe that's why this is hitting me so hard. But it needs to hit, so to speak.

I will NEVER be a victim. I will continue to learn and work to know how to effectively protect myself and others if need be.

I will use whatever means I have to avoid situations in which I would need to defend myself - talking, buying someone a drink, whatever. I will not panic, I will NOT be cocky. I will use the judgement I know I have, and I will be effective in applying whatever I need to apply.

I'm not fooling myself or anyone else. I'm a petite teenage girl. That's at least 3 things that can make me an easy target, and potentially a victim. Damned if I'm going to let that happen.


Jay, good party tonight. Your roommates are cool.

earlier today:

Julie - (looking at my toenail) "Wow, it is yellow!"

me - "You know what, I bet it's just a bruise or something."

Julie - "No, I think you're dying."


just now:

Julie - "Now I won't be able to sleep tonight! I'll be thinking, 'Do chickens have feelings?? Dust bowl!!! Do chickens have feelings? Dust bowl!!'"


It's impossible to feel sorry for myself for long with the kind of friends I have. I love college.

That was sentimental and mushy!

Tired and down.....I think I'm gonna go swim like 10000 laps tomorrow. Or 50.

So, I didn't even make callbacks. Tonight is the 'feeling sorry for myself' night, tomorrow I'm back to normal.

I think that went well. I hope that went well.

Just got back from auditioning from Rubyfruit, which was a lot of waiting around for about 10 minutes in the audition room. But, I saw a few people I haven't seen since May, and I got a good vibe. I know by now I can't go on vibes, but it was still a good one. Remind me to run back there after Jujitsu tomorrow to see if I made callbacks. I hope I made callbacks.

Homework!

Is anyone else tired of the pink? I think it's time for a new background.

It's impossible to concentrate when Bing Crosby is playing......so soothing......
What a great sentiment......"so if you're worried and you can't sleep, count your blessings instead of sheep. And you'll fall asleep counting your blessings."

Almost forgot - activities fair today 5-7, Fairfield Way. I'll be at the College Republicans table, hoping no one notices. Not that I'm ashamed of my political beliefes (quite the opposite), but it's hard to enjoy life here if you're going to be outspoken with what are unfortunately some very unpopular opinions. I prefer to leave politics for the dinner table at home and once a week with the CR's. There are more than enough things here to occupy my time; I don't need to add student politics to it.

Why did I feel like I had to justify that?

Amendment - time travel is not impossible. It is entirely possible and necessary to travel in time.....forward. Or we could start talking about anti-time, but that's one of last night's "Star Trek: The Next Generation" reruns.

Yup, too much sugar.

I like this new direction.

I'm finally taking classes that have relevance, and that I'm interested in. Politics and economics - why didn't I see this before? I was thinking last night about how if I had gone to a different high school, I could have already taken (or gotten credit for) nearly all of the classes I have taken/am taking thus far. But if I had done that, would I have made up my mind earlier? Would I be a music major? Something else entirely? Completely confused? Well, time travel is impossible, so I have to be content with how things have turned out. I've been consuming far too much sugar.