You know that fluttery feeling you get in your gut when you know you're about to find out something you really, really, don't want to ever find out? You know how it lasts for some time after?

I just got some very bad news about a friend. He was, no is, my ex-boyfriend's best friend, and while I knew him I considered him a friend as well. My thoughts are on both of them right now, as I tried to study for my Physics exam. I'm sure you can guess how well I'm doing with that.

I blew up a little at Saurav today. I used him as an excuse to unload all the hostility and frustration I've been feeling towards what I consider the common ignorance and vapid self-righteousness of most people who see fit to broadcast their mindless "opinions" on all things political and politics-related....and there I go again! But really, why hold it in? I do that far too much - I think I have a real problem with telling people what I really think when the situation calls for it. Even writing here, I hold back a lot because I know people read it, and I don't want to shock or offend too much. God forbid someone changes their opinion of me. So, Rav, if you're reading this, I'm sorry I yelled, but you know I wholeheartedly disagree with everything you said. You will never convince me that Bush is an idiot, because he's not. No one has this magical insight that lets them suddenly know more than the leader of the free world - I guarantee that he knows more about foreign affairs than any of you. God help me, I trust the President. I have faith in my country's leadership.

High school drama with some of my best friends at home - I won't go into it here, but it's the kind of thing where a misunderstanding, rumor, or lie finds and hurts some poor unexpected soul(s). Remember those? Don't they suck?

Writing back to my ex. It looks like he has a new girlfriend.

of today - lots and lots of mixed feelings